not lost.

hello everyone. i'm at my own room now in perth. finally i get to have my own room and it's so nice and comfy, my dad and may helps me put everything together and poor them got hurt. i'll post pictures of it when i feel like doing it.

can you believe it, i just bath and i'm still sweating while blogging. it's very hot now, especially today it's 40 degree i think. before it was still okay, at least there's wind but today it's very hot. everything is okay here, but still if you want me to complain there's still a lot to complain but this is life. :(

the so called air cooler in my room is so lousy that i can only feel the air when im standing below it. thanks to my dearest dad who bought me the latest D650 fan that can rotate 180 degree i think and it feels just like an aircon. my parents told me to open the window too so that fresh air can flow in to the room. just when im typing this, er jie came in and asked me to open the window too. hahaha. but i bet she never knew how much dirt the window has. yuck! i havent finish cleaning it yet. i'll clean it after or before dinner later.

since i've started "giving comment" on my window maybe i should continue giving comment on other stuff too. lets see, the place where im suppose to hang my clothes.. it's really dicgusting. the walls near by has spider webs on it, not those that we used to see in brunei, in here there's those big spider webs with dead insects stuck on it. i changed my drying-my-clothes-area to a cleaner place. :)

the kettle too. urg.. it's filled with stain and er jie says stuff stuff and i'll have to leave it there so it wont spoil or something. and many more la. hahahah. i know im not a very clean person but this is not the matter of how clean i am but.. who can stand living in this place with all the dirt and stains? but other than that, the rest are okay except for the floor that's a bit sticky luckily i brought my house slipper along. hehe.

the time in perth is an hour faster than brunei's. meet up with my aunt yesterday, had dinner and lunch with her and we send my family to the airport. i dont really feel like staying here when i think of the fact that the rest of my family are going to fly back to brunei sooner or later but they told me that i'm very lucky compared to others who went studying overseas alone and has no relatives or friends with them. at least, i have er jie and a few relatives and cousins with me so i ought to be happy about it. i have to stay strong, because 我们是勇敢的中国人 my dad says.

i miss going out with my family every sunday where we'll have brunch together and do some groceries shopping and maybe have high tea at some nice place and go venture around brunei. i miss talking with my sister before we go to bed. i miss playing with happi who keeps reminding me to buy her the tv thingy for her birthday. i miss waking up late and my mother would slam me on my butt so that i wake up. i miss my dad too who is a very good talker when he's in his good mood, we always get to buy whatever we want as long as he can afford it. i miss lim teh-ing with dajie at CA mohammad talking about everything. i miss playing with baby kerstin. i miss going to the indian laundry shop to get my dad's clothes clean. i miss going to the office and do nothing. and not to forget i miss all my friends too, there's just too much to mention.

i've got my oz line now but im not really used to it yet, i finish my credit in just a little while. im dont really understand how they charge, like how much is each messages, how much is each call per minutes and etc. i've asked the man from the shop but he speaks too fast and i dont really get him. i've asked him to repeat already and i think he'll get annoyed if i keep asking him to repeat so i'll just forget about it and try again next time.

er jie asked me whether i want to go out with her for dinner and movie but i chose to stay at home because i have a skype date with dajie later around 8pm later. i hope that she doesnt forget. i heard that brunei has been raining cats and dogs these days but in perth it's like burning nuggets and hot dogs. hahaha. i dont get it why some ppl here doesnt like wearing shoes/slippers even when they're going outdoors. so disgusting, you never know what you might step on.

it's 6:39pm right now and it's still so bright. the sky turns dark only when it's almost 9pm. i know, weird right? i'm hungry now. i'll go cook some instant noodle which my er jie calls it minute noodle. hahaha. tata~

what the heck?

today is suppose to be one of the best day of my life but it ends up being one of the worst day of my life. it's one of my best day because i finally got the guts to drive (not only moving forward) around some buildings in bandar. i've been there a lot of time but i never dare to drive but today i did it but of course i was told that i was being a kepo driving the car by you-dont-even-want-to-know-who because she spoils the rest of my day. :(

i passed my driving test on the 20th and can actually get my driving license in the afternoon but due to my laziness, i followed the mother home instead of dajie and i have to get it on the next day. sadly, there's a huge, gigantic rain which flooded almost the whole brunei and i cant get my license. yes, the land transport was flooded and even the pc and some documents are affected too, hopefully my license is not affected said my teacher and she'll get it for me on saturday.

i passed and no one in my family allows me to drive their car, not even with them sitting at the side. what more to say if i got my license? they looks so are-you-sure-you-can-drive when i say i want to drive. in other circumstances, when i asked my mother whether i can drive or not, she'll say ask papa, but when i say papa he'll find other reasons and say ask dajie. what the heck is this? I PASSED MY TEST OKAY? it's not like i give under table money to the officer to say im passed. sheesh.. dont drive ma dont drive lor. what's the big deal anyway.

*the person who spoils my day totally forgets what she said and is being nice to me now. urg.. she always do this, forget everything so fast.*

anyway, about my worst day of my life. it's actually the same as always as the same thing always happens to me. she nagging and i hate it. urg.. i'm not gonna elaborate on anything since it's almost the same thing that happened before. i was just sitting there listening to her "talking" and yet she can still continue her "talk" for like 20 mins? eee..

i just thinks that she hates me and i kinda hate her too now. i always hate her so badly after she scolds or nags me and feels better after sometime but then she'll continue the same thing when she remembers something again. if i make her hate me so much, why don't she just kill me? i feel like dying everytime when she scolds me. arg.. stupid world. she always expect me not to be angry when/after she scolds me. is that possible? when others do the same thing to her, she's also angry and now she wants me to be so happy when she's scolding me.

lets not talk about all this stupid stuff anymore. sigh. do you know that it feels really good to laugh in a HAHAHA way literally? i feel very happy laugh that way although its very stupid. urg.. i seriously have no mood to blog anymore. goodbye.

oh my..

hello. there's so much that happened these days. first of all, i'll be leaving to perth on th 25th which is exaxtly 1 month before school starts. i'm gonna stay with er jie. my whole family except dajie will be going to perth with me. i'll have a wonderful holiday with them before i go to school.

er jie wants me to learn cooking and some house chores first before i go as she wont be always there to help me with everything because she has work to do and she also claims that her working hours are funny so i'll have to learn them but i told her i can do those normal house chores and will be eating those easy-cooking-food but i didn't tell her that it's instand noodle. haha.

i bought a laptop, printer, mouse and etc yesterday. well, i haven't really buy them yet, i just chose them and i was suppose to collect it yesterday but everyone's too busy with their work so i might as well just get it tomorrow as they're not open today. i chose the dell one cuz dajie says she's using it and reckon that it's good, i got the white one btw. :)

went to had a yummy lunch at i lotus the other day and everyone(my family) is so good to me. i get to order whatever i want. eg, mango scallop (too bad the mangoes aren't very ripe), my all time favourite honeydew sago and bayam/bayang soup.

btw, im chatting with pk right now and he's in sibu already and he never tells me about it. he say's it's because i dont online that often anymore and i was thinking 'cannot message meh?'. HAHAHA.

anyways, i've packed almost everything now, the maid packed for me actually. all i do is just telling her what i want to bring and she pack. haha. dajie helped me buy lots of other stuffs like mopiko, instant crysanthemum tea, stationaries and etc. terima kasih to all for helping.

had dinner with lynn, jia and jane on friday and i heard the funniest thing ever.. zebra = help jane zip her bra!!! hahaha. isn't funny? lynn and jia laugh for only a few seconds and i think i laugh for 1 min? haha. very funny lor.. i got a msg from ms. KL saying that there's a reunion on tues and sadly i dont think i can make it lor as i dont have transport i think.

talking about transport, i passed my law test and will be having my driving test this tues. i cant pull the hand break up easily and my teacher ask me to do some push up and i thought she was talking about the hand break, like i shoud push up the hand break more but what she means is me doing more push up so i have the strength to pull the lousy hand break. and i think the 2nd gear just hate me for no reason, its hard for me to move it there. sigh.. but over all it's okay i think, im only afraid of the parking. :( wish me luck!!

bye bye.

i'm not what you think i am.

woke up early today as usual, we're on our way to bring happi to tuition and the mother wants happi to say her timetables, happi doesn't quite remember them, the mother scolds her and all of the sudden she said '我这样子骂妹妹，你最开心的啦，每一次我骂她你都很开心，你不要以为我不知道.. 你有一种很变态的心'.

i felt so mad of course because i wasn't even happy and secondly.. she says i have a 变态的心. what the heck. she doesn't even know what happen in the previous incident and now she's here scolding me for i don't even know what reason.

what happen in the previous incident is that happi got scolded because we're quarreling and to let her(happi) know that i "won" the fight, i'll have to be kambang and happy that she got scolded, right? but this doesn't mean that i'm happy everytime she get scolded. i wasn't that 变态 okay. we're always there for each other whenever one of us get scold, we share lots of secrets that maybe she didn't even tell you and so much more, do you know that? i bet you don't even want to know them either.

and don't simply say you know me well when you don't even know me. you didn't even know i don't eat tomato sauce, candy and etc until i tell you. ask la before you scold me, you don't even know anything and you call me a 变态？pfft.. it's just another stupid day, i get scolded early in the morning for this stupid thing.

my cactus is sick?

hello. sorry this post isn't about colours as i mentioned it on the previous post. i don't feel like blogging about colours at the moment so i'll just say something about my cactus.



























the cactus has been with me for more than 2 years and can you believe it that it didn't grow/change a single bit. it looks exactly the same when i first got it. i placed my webcam which produce the light, to provide the cactus more light hoping my little cactus will grow faster.

i remember last time when i wan't paying much attention to happi and she got so angry that she poke my cactus with a paper clip. i got so mad as i thought the cactus might get hurt and die and scolded her back. the cactus not only didn't die but also didn't grow! the only thing that changes is that the pointy thingy got a little stronger but still can bend it here and there.

the boyfriend says that cactus flower is very beautiful and i was hoping to see the very first flower that my cactus has but sadly, after waiting for 2 whole years nothing appear. i water it regularly and even apply some fertilizers on it but it's still the same. the fertilizer is quiet effective for my other plant but not for my cactus.

anyone out there has any secret ingredient that they use on their cactus that make them grow so big and nice cuz my cactus seriously need some help. it's either it's sick or something. is there a plant doctor? mayb i should bring it to the doctor if there's any. :(


love,
JuDY