24 mac 08

i have to wait until april/may then ubd can let me know whether they will accept me or not. -___-


i went to GIANT yesterday. there's thousands of advertisement saying that GIANT's goods are very cheap, blah blah blah. cheap meh? some only, not all actually.


there's a lot of small small stalls, reminds me of Thailand's. HAHA. i like the small small stalls. so sayang it's only 1 floor. but it's really big but still cannot compare with other country's. XD


mother have been complaining about my jewelery, because my jewelery are all shattered on my shelf. i have my reason actually, when i want to choose what to wear it's easier to look for. imagine if all my jewelery are in a box, everything will be tangled, I'll have to spend time to untangled them again.


but my mother says I'm just collecting dust on my jewelery. we went to look for a jewelery box yesterday, but the one i like my mother wouldn't buy for me, the one she say it's nice is a TOOLBOX! but thanks to my very good papa, he says he know what kind i want and he'll buy for me. wahaha~


baby Kerstin know how to turn herself over already. she's getting cuter and cuter every single day. blehs~


happy belated water day! the mall got exhibition or something for water day. it's so nice compare to other normal exhibition. i didn't took any pics and i wont explain anything i see. because I'm sure you all wont understand anything i say unless you've been there.



have you all being scold by your parent until you don even worth a cent? i admit my parent, not my parent but my mother actually, has done that to me before. it's funny you know, why did she want to give birth to me if I'm so useless and everything? always know how to say say say me only. urg~ this is one of the reason why i want to study overseas. (:


the thing i hate most is that every time when me and anyone of my family members are quarrel-ing, i will feel so super angry at them, and I'll scold them so badly inside my heart, even after quarrel-ing. but as for my family members, after sometimes after the quarrel, they'll act as if nothing has happen.

they're so expert that they can change their mood so fast, but not for me! my 'gas' can last for quite a long time. yes, you can called it small gas or whatever. i just feel like 'do i really belong to this family?' because you see, my mother used to say that she got the wrong child when in the hospital because i have darker skin colour compared to my family, I'm very small gas, my blood type and theirs are different and etc.


BUT there's prove saying that i really do belong to this family is that i look like my grandma's mother. great grandmother. -__- am i suppose to be happy or what? haha.


sometimes i really think a lot before i go to sleep because it's hard for me to sleep, i don't know why. i keep turning around and pee but i just cant get to sleep. what am i thinking about? all sorts of weird stuff. sometimes when i recall about a quarrel or what, i just realise that i should say this not that. it's a bit too slow i know.


stuffs that I've ever thought off..

1) what if i really don't belong to this family? where do i belong then? should i go look for my family? but how?

2) i got 5As? did i really get 5As or is it a mistake that the MOE made? (i got 5As for PSR) during that time, I'm really afraid that 5As is really a dream. and i really waited for the MOE to call.

3) my tamagotchi is not married yet, and he's now 9 yrs old. 9 yrs old is considered old in tama world. how am i suppose to continue the next generation? sob. i don't wan to replay again. =(


for now i can only remember these. i gtg now. that's all for today.

bye bye.