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i don't really understand what my friends are talking about anymore. it's because we're not in the same school anymore, that's why. i'm not blaming anyone tho, i'm just.. blogging abou my feelings since i don't know who to tell. actually it's an okay thing, since they're reluctant to explain everything to me. it's not like their keeping secrets from me, right?

if i'm more caring enough and asked them what's happening in school or anything on msn, i think they'll let me know? not really sure but i hope they will. but i seldom chat on msn as i totally have no idea what to chat about.

a friend of mine stop sharing everything with me and i'm poignant(new word. it means sad). i know everyone has his/her's privacy and rights to whether tell or keep something to themselves but i just feel so unfair that i shared everything with her and she didn't. mayb i should stop sharing everything with her too?

sometimes when i feel like calling someone on the phone telling them how i feel, but then.. BLANK! actually there's a few friends that pop out of my mind but i'm afraid that they're not interested in whatever i'm going to talk about or what should i say after i tell them my problems? say bye bye immediately? isn't it too.. weird?

i think i need a 知心朋友, a friend that i can talk to and vice versa. i thought friends, super good BFF(SGBFF) are suppose to have no secrets? RIGHT, GRACE? or maybe i'm not your SGBFF. =( well, at least you're mine. you're 1 of my SGBFF and i'm not your SGBFF. *knife poke heart* SGBFF are hard to find, i have loads but am i their SGBFF as well?

*noodle dancing THINK THINK THINK!*
jelly: i've got it.
peanut: what what what?
jelly: *tells her stupid impossible idea*
-PB&J.

papa came back from japan just now and bought lots of stuff for me, mostly keychains tho. i'll post pics of them on the next post as i'm "building" a mini shelf of my keychains. DIY. papa buy loads of foods too. pictures on next post. =)

goodbye.
bye bye.