what the heck?

today is suppose to be one of the best day of my life but it ends up being one of the worst day of my life. it's one of my best day because i finally got the guts to drive (not only moving forward) around some buildings in bandar. i've been there a lot of time but i never dare to drive but today i did it but of course i was told that i was being a kepo driving the car by you-dont-even-want-to-know-who because she spoils the rest of my day. :(

i passed my driving test on the 20th and can actually get my driving license in the afternoon but due to my laziness, i followed the mother home instead of dajie and i have to get it on the next day. sadly, there's a huge, gigantic rain which flooded almost the whole brunei and i cant get my license. yes, the land transport was flooded and even the pc and some documents are affected too, hopefully my license is not affected said my teacher and she'll get it for me on saturday.

i passed and no one in my family allows me to drive their car, not even with them sitting at the side. what more to say if i got my license? they looks so are-you-sure-you-can-drive when i say i want to drive. in other circumstances, when i asked my mother whether i can drive or not, she'll say ask papa, but when i say papa he'll find other reasons and say ask dajie. what the heck is this? I PASSED MY TEST OKAY? it's not like i give under table money to the officer to say im passed. sheesh.. dont drive ma dont drive lor. what's the big deal anyway.

*the person who spoils my day totally forgets what she said and is being nice to me now. urg.. she always do this, forget everything so fast.*

anyway, about my worst day of my life. it's actually the same as always as the same thing always happens to me. she nagging and i hate it. urg.. i'm not gonna elaborate on anything since it's almost the same thing that happened before. i was just sitting there listening to her "talking" and yet she can still continue her "talk" for like 20 mins? eee..

i just thinks that she hates me and i kinda hate her too now. i always hate her so badly after she scolds or nags me and feels better after sometime but then she'll continue the same thing when she remembers something again. if i make her hate me so much, why don't she just kill me? i feel like dying everytime when she scolds me. arg.. stupid world. she always expect me not to be angry when/after she scolds me. is that possible? when others do the same thing to her, she's also angry and now she wants me to be so happy when she's scolding me.

lets not talk about all this stupid stuff anymore. sigh. do you know that it feels really good to laugh in a HAHAHA way literally? i feel very happy laugh that way although its very stupid. urg.. i seriously have no mood to blog anymore. goodbye.